house competition in the morning.
gathered with xin yan, geraldine lee, amelia, mubarika, geraldine tan and janice.
aft that was performance in the school hall.
everyone was 'rebellious'
kept defying mdm siti's instructions until she like bth us.
aft performance, everyone chionged out of school hall like mad ppl.
thought mdm siti would be angry.
but she didn't sia. so surprise. she even allow us to go back.
everyone don't seem to be on their right mind.
aft that went back primary school.
OMG mrs chia [ms see] knew that i keep going fb.
then she keep saying and looking at me.
heh :X

math had a lot of teachers coming into our class,
all of classes.
):
then that camera keep facing me and i cant do my math.
irritating.
damn pek cek.
went for recess.
damn hyper cos next was music
all th groups were great!
aft sch, went up to auditorium for clean-up session.
hid inside the percussion room with xin yan.
like damn long.
had a talk.
then she keep _____.
aft that joined seniors to clean up.
played with microphone.
damn nice.
left sch around 3pm with senior charmaine and senior jovina and xin yan.
slacked at subway.
then xin yan ___ again.

heard that he's quitting...
somehow i want him to go but i dun want him to go at the same time.
then amelia keep saying i confirm like him le.
wth?!
is he leaving cos she's left? or is it th awkwardness between us that made him leave?
okay. i've made up my mind.
i want him to stay, for the sake of percussion.
UV says he's gonna talk to him. i hope it works...
but if he stay, how long can he last?
it's been so long since he skipped.
i miss his brave playing of th instruments.


everybody, put your hands up, say i don't wanna be in love, i don't wanna be in love. If you got nothing left, say i don't wanna be in love, i don't wanna be in love.

everything has a limit.
don't push your luck.
i'm sick and tired of it.
enough is enough.
this is way too much.
tolerated it so many times.
not th first time alr.
just when will get th ________ hell out of my life?
i can't tolerate it anymore.
it seriously sucks.
a chance, th final last chance, but some ppl don't know how to use it properly.
forget it? yeah forget it.
don't ever appear in my sight, don't ever appear in my life.
I HATE YOU

today sch was totally slackish and nice, until aft sch.
don't wanna talk about it.
irritants

mtdc was great!
^^
improved a lot, thanks to R, YJ and UV.
(:
then last 1/2 hr or so started chatting with instructor.
talked about houses, investing, renting, selling, buying, SCO, music gambling, places, and mostly about money.
damn chim.
but still can understand a bit.

Oh what mess u got the best of my heart it broke and now it's just a joke. cus u're moving right along. im stil here and you're gone. oh what shame u know i didnt mean for the winds to change. wont ever be the same cus the kisses that u blew, wont could never ever move. i think i need some time by myself without anybody else. i just need to unwind in my time machine. i need to go far away, a few years back would be okay. i just need to unwind in my time machine. hey you ya im talking to u. now it's just dead cus it didnt mean a thing. waiting for a ring. hey its a game. and isnt it a shame that it was just a show. i thought that this was love but i cant be fooled again. im crying out but i cant give in. all the things that we could change, now will never be the same. i shouldnt love you, but i want to. i just can't turn away. i shouldnt see you but i cant move. i cant look away. and i don't know how to be fine when i'm not. how to make a feeling stop. just so you know, this feeling's taking control of me. and i cant help it. thought you should know, i tried my best to let go of you. but i don't want to. i just gotta say it all. before i go, just so you know. it's getting hard to get around you. there's so much i can't say. do you want me to hide my feelings and look the other way? this emptiness is killing me. and im wondering why i've waiting for so long. we've run out of words; we've run out of time, we've run out of reason really why we were together. we both know it's over. let's just call it quits it's probably better so. i used to be tripping over missing over you but i'm not anymore. i'm tryna erase you from my mind. oh i ask about you whenever i come around. last thing i need's another episode. you know it's over when the burning and the yearning inside you heart ain't there anymore
Lightning strikes,Inside, my chest to keep me up at night. Dream of ways, To make you understand my pain. Clouds of sulfur in the air. Bombs are falling everywhere. It's a heartbreak warfare. Once you want it to begin, No one really ever wins In heartbreak warfare. If you want more love, why don't you say so? Drop his name, Push it in and twist the knife again. Watch my face,As I pretend to feel no pain. How come the only way to know how high you get me is to see how far I fall. God only knows how much I'd love you if you let me, but I can't break free at all. It's a heartbreak...You're talking shit again, it's heartbreak warfare.Good to know it's all a game. Disappointment has a name, it's heartbreak warfare.

{four lyrics♥}

idon'twantyoutogo,iwantyouback.
):
I want my 22nd!

today was extremely busy in school.
entered class, started sorting out physics file.
i made it worse, i messed it up.
wrong. it was alr messed up. i just added on to my burden
):
first period IHUM.
boring. keep thinking about physics file that i ruined.
next, chem.
did mindmap.
choinged and choinged.
still didnt manage to finish it.
):
recess, even boring.
watched gee.T, xin yan and jojo play taptap.
went back to class.
physics, siannn!
oh well, lessons were practically boring and dead today.
spent my whole day thinking how im supposed to finish my work.
aft sch, multi-tasked!
^^
did geog, physics and art at the same time.
did halfway, went to next table to eat, then sat back at same table to continue with hw.
realised didnt finish math [thought i did]
then went for CCA.
late!
then instructor kept 'staring' at me and amelia lahh.
luckily someone locked th audi door, so everyone cant go in.
heh :X
started practice.

aghh,kena kicked by bro. thanks to my cousin. now leg damn pain ):

You're my heartbreaker. Only you caused a broken body, dead dreams, lost heart. You said goodbye, goodbye to me. You're my heart heart heart heart heartbreaker. What did i do wrong. This is tedious; this is not going smoothly. My heart's tragedy no way. In that spot, that place, it's goodbye and goodbye. Because of you i still can't find sleep, but i can't say so. Oh can't you see, i'm still loving you. Still my heart cannot let you go. Say no, say that it can't be, that in your heart, you're still waiting for me. Heart break. Don't say you love me when you are at the door,'cause I know things are different than they were before. You'll kill me. This temptation is hard to resist. And I don't ever, ever wanna hear you say-don't say you love me, Don't say you love me you're leaving. Headed for a heart, heart, heartbreak. The walls came down you wouldn't let me in. It's crashing down on me tonight. I'm sick and tired of this whole situation. No don't say you love me tonight



everyone was rebellious during lesson today.
damn funny
forgot to bring theory workbk, cher still praise me
heh.
:X

MTDC'S 22ND [!]


on the waiting!
love you lots lahh
i just can't get enough of you.
heh. just kidding.
you're so irritating,
you eat up my thursday nights and my sat afternoons.
though it's tiring,
i have never thought of leaving,
i have never thought of graduating.
imagine everything ends on 22nd,
how sad it will be.
don't make me hate 22nd,
though i don't know how long i can last.
stay strong (:
my 22nd

Remembering all those things we wanted, now all of our memories they're haunted, we were always meant to say goodbye. Even without our fists held high, never would have worked it out right. We were never meant for do or die. I didnt want us to burn out. I didnt come here to hurt, you know. I cant stop... and i want you to know that it doesnt matter where we should take this road, someone's gotta go. But i want you to move on. Looking at you makes it harder, but i know you'll find another that doesnt always make you wanna cry. You know i love you so, i love you enough to let you go...

today's mtdc was superb!
hehh. jkjk
late for 15 mins.
at first amelia woke up late, then i met her late, and then xin yan met us late.
hahah!
mtdc started.
not ding lao shi conduct.
was the fu lao shi [correct? ><]
anyway, dun care the name lahh.
she damn good-tempered jiu dui le ><
got one part whole of percussion dun nid play
^^
started talking, looked through piano scores, then did my fnn hw
OMGOMGOMG
having friends playing piano are freaking cool!
next week my turn to share piano scores with them
^^ ^^ ^^ ^^
aft lesson,
walked to mrt interchange.
saw UV with Yeon Jae
OMGOMGOMG
made fun of them
hahahah
damn funny lahh
then saw tricia
...

I'm dying because of the pain. I want you back, but i know i can't. You're breaking my heart, but you don't know. Are you laughing? Are u happy? All the memories have left me. This silence that made me hurt and choke. I feel my blood pumping, just like a poison, all day long, suffering, but you're gone. Looking at your eyes, i missed it. Please help me to get out of this hellish place. If this is a dream, hurry , wake me up. Please say that everything was a lie. Please say it, say it to me so that i could live. If time is a drug, why isn't it going away? This is not right. this is love's cheat. Even sleeping pills can't help me. When i'm thinking of you, day and night,walking around back and forth, struggling.If i force myself to love someone, will i live again? Don't leave. Help me for once, help me please.

I found th way to let you leave. I never really had it coming. I cant believe the sight of you. I want you to stay away from my heart.

{Lyrics♥}

finally all th tests are over
(:
ytd mtdc was like ...
didnt touch any of th instruments for weeks
suddenly felt so distant
improved for technology
(:
but i dont think i met instructor's target yet
):
must jiayou moreeeee
22nd!
OMG
i think i'm gonna love it.
(:
amelia and xin yan must also jiayou hor

2 tests over, 2 more coming up next wk
):
geog test gone case alr
my memory is bad
x.x
math test should be okay
not much hw this weekend
art how?!
x.x
hope nth obstruct my plans for tmr
(:

a race against time[!]
project, homework, coursework, tests, etcetc
all came crashing down at once.
):
damn busy.
heheh.
okay gotta continue with coursework before i sidetrack even more.
bye(:

sat:
SUCK!
[skipped][skipped][skipped]
let all the bad memories be gone with the wind...
{♥}


sun:
got mood to do hw de.
but parents ruined my plans by dragging me to AMK.
):
today not bad luhh.
spent whole day making tarts.
(:
learnt a lot of new things.
^^
went out with cousin and aunt to buy ingredients.
at first took bus to 7-11.
then took bus again to AMK hub.
started making tarts at 2pm and ended at 4++pm.
used aunt's com.
damn lagged.
then talked about DIY with cousin.
night time, ate dinner, went out to AMK hub with parents.
this time we walked.
^^
u fooled me, all over again.
but this time,
i let my head rule my heart, not the other way round.

mon:
CG practice was scary...
gawd i'm sorry
):
though they said i think too much,
but i still think u are angry
and u got 'scolded'[or maybe not] cos of my lousy xylophone playing.
):


tues:
pe!
did that boring dance.
more like walking here and there
-.-"
aft sch, realeased late.
choinged to change into uni, then had 'lunch' with xin hong.
choinged up the stairs to the auditorium.
practiced the welcome thingy.
then wore tie and moved drums down to foyer
China pupils came earlier than expected
WOW.
clapped, welcome etc etc
but before we start i saw him
<3!
OMG he looked kinda different uh...
okay, then went up to AVA room
damn hyper.
xin hong and tricia keep saying about him
-.-"
then took them around etc etc
4.30pm,parted.
saw Zhang Yu Jie.
hahah he still rmb me
^^
went to auditorium for CCA
didnt practice much.


thurs:
China pupils came again!
hehheh...
XD
attended first period[math] with them
sang with yanchi<3
muahahaha
9.40am, went to hall to learn that walking 'dance'
10.30am, recess.
OMGOMGOMG
she treat me damn good luhh
helped me buy bread and drink
...
then all went basketball court to see ppl play basketball.
hahaha
aft that, they went out while we go back class for lit
aft sch, went to ws with geraldine lee, jojo, xin yan and amelia.
then went to xin yan house to learn how to bake biscuits
^^
but realised not enough icing and no flour
-.-"
walked back to east point mall to buy ingredients
started baking around 3.45pm.
talked a lot
><
reached home around 7.45pm


fri:
last day meeting China pupils
):
woke up at 5.45am, reached sch around 6.40am.
China buddies came early, as usual.
went to class with them, talked a lot
^^
went through 6 national day song, then went parade square.
houses cheers,a bit of performance[ncc, np,ncd etc] and did that walking 'dance'
recess!
talked to ms lee throughout the whole recess.
didnt go basketball court.
):
went back to class for food donation thingy.
i almost lost my table
):
proceeded to hall for performance
etc etc.
gathered at AVA.
goodbye speeches by principal and mr yuan.
exchanged presents, took pictures etc etc.
omg i didnt get to talk to him
):
went down to foyer.
group pictures, then keep talking.
joked with some guys fron China, keep laughing.
robbie's buddy damn cute luhh!
okay, i damn sad.
then yanchi keep asking if i got put poison in my biscuits
-.-"
she suddenly disappear, then aft a few mins returned again.
then she say the biscuits nice
(:
the bus came, they left.
walked home with amelia.
keep thinking about him.
i miss everyone luhh, esp him and yanchi
):
i damn sad i damn sad i damn sad!!!!
what if i cant forget? what if i keep thinking?